With Love, Kianarose
My practice drastically changed once going into quarantine. I found it very difficult to have any motivation once being home all the time. This is especially because I was mainly photographing people. I was no longer able to photograph people in the same way, and ended up mainly photographing my brother in different metroparks in the Toledo area. This proved to be a challenge as I could no longer shoot on film either, and my dslr stopped working a week into quarantine. This led to most of my photos being phone pics. With these limitations I tried to play off of weird projects I already had been doing. My photos for mom series are literal phone pictures I have always taken for my mom of my brother and I doing weird things in parks. This also drew off of my idea to make eye-spy type pictures of my brother and I hiding in the trees. The last of my film photos are also stuck as edited TIFFs. I was unable to download photoshop as my laptop has no storage, and the files were too big for...
I am not going to bother with that filler blah blah blah of how the world is on fire. You’re smart. You can see the flames. And what do I tell you? That I almost died? That I was sick for a over a month and at some point, couldn’t breathe? That I have the photos sitting in a Tupperware container waiting to be developed. You don’t get to see those. So, who really cares? You get to see the before and somewhere after the phlegm and albuterol. I came into this class with a goal: “I want to learn to take pictures of people.” But then the world went mad. So, I went mad. And I give you, too, madness. I give you texture. I give you Midwestern Gothic. I give you a bedroom. Exposure. And light too harsh meeting light too soft. I give you my body in all its malformation and illness. I give it to you. I shove it down your throat. Because what else is there to eat? The streets were always empty. The houses always still. The river is a river is a river is a river. If that is what this means to you then I clap my hands inside your empty belly. Let it ring through your body. Let it sucks the air out your lungs. Invasive in your skin. And maybe then you will get it. Maybe then you will be full.
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