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Christiana Roque Final:How COVID-19 killed me

Find me

I'm ready


left to rot
Me

another person's treasure?

what is it

its obvious

look at me

not a glance
ugly

stuck

can you see

can you hear

are you there
no
Being kept inside has changed what I choose to photograph. I also wanted to challenge myself in trying to photography myself , that made it harder. due to the circumstances I had to be creative and use different tools to create the images I wanted. Honestly this whole situation made me feel unmotivated and stuck. I have to deal with a constant uncomfortable environment and complete work in a format that isn't at all helpful to my success. I want to have learn to make art in all situations, but I'm still struggling. I wanted to use all  my experiences, stress and depression in my work, but ended up created less photos than needed. Rather than the way I see the world, the way I see myself has changed. I have come to a  better understanding of my comfort zone and how I am affected by discomfort. I learned how I am as an artist and how I express that. I think I could work well after college despite my struggles during the quarantine, though I still need to work on my motivation. the major reason online classes don't work for me is that I have bad self-control. If I don't feel like doing an assignment or doing anything, I won't or it will take me a long time to force myself to do it. I also work in burst, periods of laziness and enjoying life and periods of constant work and busy-ness. I don't know if this is good, but this is how I function. In "learning to love your prison" you can use your depressed and uninspired self and try to make work that reflects those feelings. Or you can learn about your feelings and situation to see the brighter side. In conclusion, quarantine sucks, COVID-19 sucks, my photographs are trash which is reflective of my mood, this whole paragraph probably isn't well written, and I will be retaking the class.

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